It's OK If We Don't Make Sense

Posted by Alina Liao on

Yesterday, I finished the book Fledgling by Octavia Butler. In her bio at the end, she describes herself as "an oil-and-water combination of ambition, laziness, insecurity, certainty, and drive."

That made me pause and smile. I wrote it down in my custom wellness journal. I said, "Wow. I LOVE the image of being an 'oil-and-water' combination of things because we know oil and water won't ever mix - and that's OK. They can still coexist together." 

There's so much pressure to be a certain way - to be "right" inside. In my self care journaling, I've long grappled with the parts of myself that conflict. "What's wrong with me?" I vent in my self care journaling. On the one hand, I'm a big dreamer and I push myself hard. On the other hand, I often crave to just sit still and do nothing. On the one hand, my self-doubt and worst-case-scenario thinking makes me proceed with caution. On the other hand, I do believe in myself and want to forge ahead boldly. 

But when I asked in my self care journaling, well, what is my "oil-and-water combination"? I got some breathing space. I journaled in my custom wellness journal, "it's OK if I don't make sense." It's OK that I have all these different parts of myself that seem to conflict. They don't have to actually conflict. They can simply roll around each other like oil and water. I can let it be.

What about you? What are the oil-and-water parts of you? What does it mean to view your oil-and-water combination with acceptance? Try to write it out in your self care journaling.

With love,
Alina Liao, founder of Zenit
Feel it, write it, Zenit

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