Happy New Year!
I hope your new year is off to a good start. My family and I welcomed our newest addition December 29, 2025. I'm happy to say we are healthy. Over this time, I've been reflecting and journaling on my journey over the past years and wanted to share some thoughts with you...
Getting through years of chasing
Looking back, the past several years, I felt like I was always chasing. I wasn't making enough money with Zenit. I wasn't doing my parents justice given all the investment they made in me. I was never enough. I wasn't just chasing business success - I was chasing stability, peace of mind, confidence... chasing the version of me who feels like me again.
When I started Zenit and my journaling practice, I was deep in my depression. Everyday was a struggle. Tiny setbacks sent me down spirals of "not enough." But it was also a time I was finally prioritizing my mental health. Using my journaling, therapy, and support systems, I moved forward in my healing. Zenit and my wellness journal gave me the space to heal through my work. It allowed me to get in touch with my true self, reawaken my inner artist, and find my voice.
Then, in 2024, I had my first child, and while I was so grateful to become a mom, I struggled with my new identity as a mom. I felt like with Zenit, I wasn't enough as a provider. I was failing my family. So I was back to chasing - chasing "the right" definition of mother and provider. Chasing who I was "supposed to be."
2025 was about working through my identity crisis. I thought I needed to end Zenit and get a "proper job." I even applied for jobs. But I came out the other side, re-centered in my "why" for starting Zenit and promoting journaling, and seeing a future in it again.
A moment of clarity
My 2025 ended with me stepping back from work to have my second child. After giving birth, there was a moment when I was in the hospital room lying in bed, everything quiet and still for once. I looked over at my baby sleeping, and then at my husband napping on the pullout couch, and I thought, "I'm living the dream."
I have my family, two beautiful kids. For work, I'm doing something I believe in, where I can be my full self. What more could I ask for?
So I enter 2026 with a new mindset - no more "not enough." No more chasing. Not because there isn't more to do - there is always more work to do. But I don't need to approach the work from a place of lacking. It's time to let go of chasing the dream and step into living it.
What does this mean for you?
What this means for Zenit and how I show up for you is, I'm refocusing on the core of why I started Zenit - helping people unlock the power of journaling to support their healing, mental health, and wellness.
While journaling is only one of many tools in the ecosystem of mental health resources, I am focused on journaling because it gives us foundational tools to support our wellbeing. So much of what we experience day to day disconnects us from ourselves - from our bodies, our hearts, our intuition. Journaling is a practice of coming back to the self.
Journaling helps us get in touch with our inner thoughts, feelings, needs, and desires. It builds our self-awareness, which empowers us to listen to our bodies, identify and release what no longer serves us, and build mindsets, beliefs, habits, and routines that serve our well-being.
I am committed to staying true to my own journaling practice, and I look forward to sharing more products, experiences, and stories that inspire and equip you to use journaling for your own health, wellbeing, and dreams too.
With love,
Alina
You are worthy of your wellness